A letter to my past friend !
Here's a letter to my friend with whom I fought last year.
I recently read a quote by William Shakespeare-'A friend is one that knows you as you are, understands where you have been, accepts what you have become and still gently allows you to grow.'
2020 started so beautifully I couldn't actually think of, we became close friends, you started believing in me and i actually felt good about it. But whatsoever happened between us was really disappointing. 2020 is now over and i really wont lie now, it was REALLY not my fault!
The ways in which you've helped me, supported me, trusted me is done by really few people and you're so special to me, I actually can't define in words!
I don't know why but people find me emotional or innocent, come in my life, play a important role, create a place in my heart, then all of a sudden when they're done with me they come fool me, fight with me and leave me all alone. But you never did that. Although we weren't on good terms for a new months but that didn't change our friendship still. You might not like me that much now, but for me I've loved and lost you but still I'll have you forever! I really miss my old friends, my school friends, our friendship, our coaching group. I wanna talk to you all, talk to you everyday, share daily experiences but every time when I gather the courage to text any one of you, I always step back because I know no one wants to talk to me now. I really don't understand where did I go wrong. I was good with everybody, I never hurt anyone, never played with anyone then why you guys don't wanna talk to me!
People kept switching sides but you never did. You're a four-leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have! Though now I've lost trust in friendships but honey you're gonna be my friend forever! I know now after today you won't get time to talk to me at all, or maybe you don't wanna talk to me but ever if you feel like giving life to someone who's lost almost every opportunity, every friendship, everything in life and you can talk to me, coz you'll never find such an incredibly happily depressed child other than me.
I didn't mean for things to be like this and wish I could take everything back to when we were close friends, I know I can't but I can show you that this will never happen again and I'm still the guy you trusted and thought of as your best friend.
I keep apologizing because I’ve been completely in the wrong to be so inconsiderate and act like I have, I wasn't the friend I should have been but I don't want to lose you because I think you're worth holding on to, I don't know why, but whenever I had a bad day, or week you always made me feel better, you were one of the few who could do that.
I'm honestly heartbroken things are like this, I don't want my mistake to ruin our friendship and it would mean so much to me if you could give me a second chance.
You genuinely mean the world to me and I can't believe how much I miss you. I know you find it hard to trust and I’ve made it even harder for you to trust me and it'll take time for you to feel ready to talk.
I'm ready to wait until you can talk to me. A lot of people walk in and out of my life but you're one of the few I ever really wanted to stay, and until I make things right with you, you're going to be constantly on my mind.
I really do miss you so much and I don’t want to lose you. I made a mistake, and I really regret it. I don't think it's worth ending our friendship over though, I hope you think that too.
At last , please forgive me and come back to me with open arms!